password protected

thinking about getting the setting blog that can set a password.. have the password to enter and read it.
but the thing is.. who i going to hide from?

the person that i wish not to read i never give him my personal little place..
but the feeling of uncertainty is magnifies especially everytime i wish to write down something personal..

stupid me that thinking too much..
there is nothing to care about..

quote that i like..

#i don care!
#am i look like i care about it?

sorry to say that.. i miss him now..

forget about it (forward)

有喜有悲才是人生，有苦有甜才是生活。
无论是繁华还是苍凉，看过的风景就不要太留恋，毕竟你不前行生活还要前行。
再大的伤痛，睡一觉就把它忘了。

背着昨天追赶明天，会累坏了每一个当下。
边走边忘，才能感受到每一个迎面而来的幸福。
烦恼不过夜，健忘才幸福。

random friday

bored, 

lazy, 

no feel wanna do my work, 

want to sleep

i wanna sleeep

annual dinner... how can i throw an annual dinner?

i don know...

i don even how to find the hotel.. grrr...

random friday...

pre-weekend moody..

whatever..

坏了

当你需要用电话来证明自己的存在时，

恭喜你！你忙到一个不行了！

完全不晓得时间的流逝，

当电话当机没的用，手上没手表，自己又觉得肥到一个不行，喉咙开始发痒，身体拼了命提醒你，快撑不住了。

那很想对你说，

Welcome to the club!!

这几个礼拜超忙，忙到晓得能睡觉是艰难的事。

忙到头昏脑胀。

醒来第一件事，不再是拿起手机看信息，而是盘算着今天的workload, deadline是什么？

躺下最后一件事也不再是看电话，而是不知不觉，也不懂有没有刷牙冲凉，倒下，睡着了！

电话坏了，风扇坏了，忙晕了。

每件事情都不顺利，都忙着和我作对。

想赶紧嫁个老公享受算了。

晕了。累了。病了。肥了。疯了！

Phobia of bak kut teh

A meat lover like me scares of pork now..

The smells of pork does it really like jinyin said before? 

腥味.. I thought that smell i would never feel nyiak.. 

But if two days consecutives eat bak kut teh..

Arrghhh.. Stop stop.. I'll back to eat vege for like few days before recover from that pork smelly..

Even now i exhale the pork breathe i can still smell it. Damn..

Watch few short video on why pork is not advisable to eat?

Aside diet, i really wanted to know why?

Founds out.. Hurmmm.. That reason still cant scares me off..

U need to come out with a solid reason that really impact in my life.. 

Sigh.. Never ever ask me go for bak kut teh le..

I will rather eat rice if u want me to eat bak kut teh.. Officially announce. Bak kut teh hater here! Damn..

Shitty roro

Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome

fuiyoh..
typing the title i already like professional~!!
yupe.. i guess this is my sickness..if you feel curious about it can click Here!!
fuiyoh again to me.. 1st time do hyperlink in blog.. :P

it is normal especially for girls..
the more i read
(doctor actually not explain details)
coz i wants to know more before i go to see doc..
so i do read lots..

this 1
ini lagi
and banyak lagi...

so.. when the doctor says..
i have some basic understanding.. oh yeah.. i macam read it before..
go back and check back again..

according to doc.. seriously.. this is common problem for girls
i check how it is common.. realize really.. superb common..
why i say like that... quote from some webpage..
"膝外翻常見於女性，在路上常見許多X型腿(X型腿是指兩足並立時，首先是兩側膝關節碰在一起，而兩足跟則靠不攏，走路出現兩膝打架互碰的步態。雙腳併攏后只有膝蓋能接觸到，大腿小腿間都有縫隙。)的女孩"

he said for beginner stage..
my condition is still normal.. still acceptable..
i feel grateful that it is..
i still can run~ <3

just be smart in run..
no more hill run of coz..
so.. i will reduce it..
treadmill is ok..
no more go outside run..
once in awhile marathon still can..

blekkk...
my friends laugh me..
your doc sure do no know what is your extent of "jogging"
he has no idea at all..
haha..
he just asked me.. dulu do i run?
i say no.. but i am not that princess cant even run or what..
that all he asked.. hahaha..

he don know that i can run for 1 or 2 hour everyday.. minimun really 1 hour that type of exercise..
well.. he no need to know..
i just need to control myself..
run safe..

next.. just i am lazy to type.. and have a place for me to check back..
the stretching that i want to do..

*“X”型腿的治療和預防方法
X型腿不同程度的矯正　　X”形腿是指站立時，兩膝併攏時兩腳不能併攏，間隔距離為1.5 cm以上。它同樣是由於先天遺傳，後天營養不良，幼兒時期坐、走姿勢不正確所引起的，造成股骨內收、內旋和股骨外展、外旋所形成的一種骨關節異常現象。它的矯正困難根大，但只要堅持，也會收到一定的效果。
矯正操的目的是加強腿部練習，使大腿內側群肌肉的力量得到加強，小腿三頭肌得到經常的鍛煉。
(1)坐在椅子上，兩手后撐，足踝處夾一物體(可由厚換薄)，兩膝併攏，然後直腿上舉至水平，再下落，15一20次X3組。
(2)兩腿屈膝坐地，膝外開，腳掌相對，兩臂彎曲，兩手扶在膝關節內側，用力下壓膝關節，至最大限度保持2秒，再還原。
(3)直腿坐，兩手體后撐地，兩膝間夾一軟物(如小皮球)，用橡皮筋將踝關節捆住，練習5分鐘。要求小腿用力夾物體。
(4)兩腿開立成二位，兩膝盡量向兩邊分開，挺胸立背，屈膝半群，慢慢抬起腳跟，然後下落，反覆提起並下落腳跟，直至小腿有酸脹感。
(5)小腿向內側踢毽子，兩腿交替進行。
內踝間距在3-6cm者，可非手術治療：白天按摩大腿外側肌肉，晚上在小兒入睡後作兩踝及股骨髁靠攏並以繃帶綁緊或利用夾板固定來逐漸矯正;補鈣和維生素D，並多曬太陽。
內踝間距在6-9cm者，可手術治療：(1)膝關節外側骨骺阻滯術(2)股骨髁上截骨術,您可與骨科醫師聯繫諮詢矯正辦法(包括手術)。
*矯正X型腿的矯正操(一)
1.對外八字腳患者，行走時，每走一步都要讓自己感覺到兩膝內側有輕擦的過程;隨時隨地選擇有直線地面，兩腳正直踩線行進練習。同樣主要靠生活中堅持。 2.X形腿的矯治練習，每天1～2遍：
第一節壓膝運動：正坐，兩腳掌相靠，兩手扶膝輕輕下壓。注意腳掌不要分開，膝蓋壓到不能再壓時，停耗一定時間。
1. 壓法：坐在平坦的地方，腳掌合攏，兩手放在雙膝內側向下慢慢按壓，然後雙膝最大限度分開，保持5-10秒鐘，還原。重複15-20次。
2. 拉引法：坐在平坦的地方，兩腿盡量併攏放平，在左右腳腕上拴一條長50厘米的橡皮筋。 然後兩腳用力向外拉引70-100厘米再放鬆還原。重複20-30次。
3. 夾物法：坐在寬凳上，雙手撐於身後，兩腳觸地，膝屈(90度)，腳腕處緊夾一質軟物品。然後雙腳離地、伸膝、兩腿盡量上抬，保持5-10秒鐘，放鬆還原，注意物不能掉(物品的選擇由大到小，直到能夾住一張紙為準)。重複20-30次。
4. 外翻法：並腳站立，身體微微前俯、半蹲、雙膝用力外翻，同時雙手向外按壓雙膝內側5-10秒鐘后，起立還原放鬆。重複20-30次。
5. 踢毽子法：用腳內側踢毽子，左右腳交換踢,左右腿各踢20-30個，共練習4組。
第二節捆腿練習：坐位，兩腿併攏抬起，以布帶捆住腳腕，兩腳用力向左右掙動。
3.非手術療法有一些，需長期不懈的堅持，可以嘗試：1.走“貓步”。2.盤膝坐20～30分鐘並交替雙腿，每天1～2次。同時按摩腿內側肌肉，增加肌張力以矯正畸形。
矯正X型腿的矯正操(二)
第1式 緊實大腿運動1. 坐在椅子1/3處，腰桿打直身體向上伸展。
2. 雙手置於坐椅兩旁，左腳抬起向前，腳尖朝上。　3. 還原換邊重複8~12下，共3次。
第2式 腿內側運動　1. 坐在椅子1/3處，雙手手肘置於大腿內側。
2. 雙手手肘用力往外撐，大腿用力向內收。
3. 形成抗力停留5~10秒。
4. 重複8~12下，共3次。

long.. i know ha.. :P

relieve, roro

Jam

Traffic jam for the way to LCCT back to KK

I am so tired as yesterday could not sleep properly and today reach office at 7am sharp for me to leave office on 4pm sharp. 

Been busy for whole day like a bee handover this and that and still teasinv by colleagues. 

Late for 30 minutes leave the office then wala~ 

Sleeeeeep deep in the bus. Auto wake up after 1 hour started to nervous that.. What the hell.. Belum sampai Airport yet?  OMG OMG OMG

If late to catchthe flight.. How?

What should i do?

Nahhhhhh it does not matter la..

Just back kl continue sleeep

Is only can think like that

Next time i would not take bus.. 

I would take ERL train..(fuiyoh.. 4X expensive than bus)

Blekkk.. Normal la..

Working level is different ma

I would be prefer the time is under my control..

Next time i back no need check flight ticket also.. 

Company will pay for me.. 3 times for a year.. Just use it.. Argghhh.. Hopefully..

Really get to airport on time.. Counting down..

My phone batt also counting down.. I am gonna be crazy.... 

Crazy,roro

Garret Popcorn

The overpriced pop corn

The branded pop corn

I do not know when i am started to think about branded stuff.. LV, CHANNEL.. 

I wanted to blame it Kyee.. Hahaha

She is the 1 craving for Garret Popcorn..

She will ask no matter who back from KL just buy for her.. Does care is close or not close.. All her eyes was.. Garret!

I feel quite funny last time as she is kinda superb duperb hate trouble people that kind of girl.. But for the Garret she can throw off her maruah to ask people buy back to her.. 

Hurm.. Last time i know she is craving for that.. Even ask my 1st known people steven bring back stuff for her when e is on the way to kk for his offshore service..

Beh paiseh! Till now i am still so amazed that i acting like that.. Hurmm..

But.. Now.. She scares the smell already.. Listen the word Garret she already wante to vomit it out.. Tsk tsk tsk..

Feed her too much.. Make her phobia.. Last time still so love.. Not loyal at all!

P/s: carlo rino 罢了喔~ shit.. That 罢了喔 cost 500 bucks.. Please don bliv her tone...

Sacastic,

Roro

Sabah tanah airku~

Pictures tell you the stories.. :)

Hashtag seafooddinner, #only in tamparulli #saulafan #engagementring?! #sibehnicedinner #fulllunchie #cravingsatified #roadtripforfoodhunt #yipppppppe!

#monkey #sakai #cultureshock #fraudbarbiedoll #coconutdrink #barehandopencoconut #sabahsarawak #imissugirls!!!!

#selfie #noob #stalker #magiclens #iphone4s #iphone4notnice:P #pimpleface:(

#lulusnappic #dirtytable #3hungrygirl #feiposlowslowgivetable #luckykyee #greenkitchaiping #wrongestimatedprice

#blur #back to reality #sobssobs

hashtag, roro 

purpose

started to forget the initial purpose i went to jog
typical human behaviour
when reach competition... we will be acting more and more aggressiveness
and when you know you can actually do it..
you can actually get a place in those competition..
ehem.. there goes wild...

i had my formal 10K run last saturday..
my 1st night run..
in somewhere in Putrajaya..
i cant say that is my 1st time been there.. cause..
i pass by many times previously..

Putrajaya is like a dead city to me when it reach night..
but the view at night is nice..
just like the view you see from airplane..
shining by those little light at far..
is a good place to dating..
but in kl..
Putrajaya is far.. and.. quite dangerous..

i took my friend BIB go and run.. therefore.. official result does not appear my name
but as usual..
when comes official run..
it will always exceed the performance when u are training..
i already had jogging everyday..
however i am still surprise when i look to the time that i run..
that is.. superb fast..

and when u run alone..
(i am blaming that louis and shafiq does not join the run)
is bored...
and.. feel scary.. as you run alone.. when reach somewhere dark.. someone kipnap? or i hurt myself in the middle? no people come and save me..

there goes again louis scold me..
you thought everyone having same pace with you?!
hahaha.. but i know you will force yourself to catch  up my pace..
and shafiq will slow down his pace to follow my pace..

running alone is just the only disadvantage -bored- you have to endure it..
other than that... is kinda motivator..
coz.. you don dare to rest.. to walk..
so.. you will slow jog.. and very fast to recover and start to normal jog again..
i think coz i am focus.. i have noone to talk with..
i am just counting down 8km.. 6km.. 2km.. then 0.02km..
reach finisher line.. that's why my time is fast...

i am scare right now.. my knee cant bend 100% everytime after i run..
training and running..
i thought that is just temporary.. and is common as i do run lots..
but then.. check with doc is always good advice..
tried to download as many as information regards the knee problem..
runner problems..
i am so sad.. my biology is sucks as my form 5..
cause i am not understand what am i read..

i am deeply believe that the teacher spoil my passion towards biology after she scold me..
haih..
草莓族，伤不起呀
so please dont simply scold me..
if you are my peer same age or just few years older than me..
i will loaded my guns full with fire..and!! attack back..
smile sarcastic.. slowly revenge and torture you in the future.. :)

for elders.. if you scold me..
the way i will act.. is cry~ wakakakakz..
seriously.. i feel bad about my attitude..
but.. i just cannot control it..

i am off my topic.. as usual =P
knee problem.. book the 物理治疗师 in monday to have more understand about what is the problem..
i am just need to worry how am i going to go to prince court in my lunch time..
probably go by taxi..
and back before the lunch time end..
normally i can use up to 2 hours for my lunch time..
too bad doctor appointment is FULL for weekend.
i am just need to pay back the time..
but next monday is month end closing..
plus i having the big diamond that my hubby send to me..
hopefully wont that complexity..

there is few running in this year end..
thanks to louis.. thank you.. for keep update me the runnning news event..
and i am sooo kiasu.. everytime have people ajak i surely want to join..
this is just my starting to run..
my 1st year..
don push myself to so far..
trying my best to recall the main purpose of running..
i am just want to be healthy.. and diet.. and whatever..
but not for the running competition..
i don mind you guyz keep on remind me ask me to stop if i overdo..
just please keep on remind..
i know how kiasu people i am..

and i am going back this weekend!
yeay!
daddy call me yesterday..
luckily i catch up his phone.. (phew)
i cant imagine if i fail to catch his phone..
then he ask many things in short..
(typical my family conversation..)
fast, precise, get result.. ok.. piak..
LoL.. i request to talk with mom before end..
i ask..
i want soup..
i want different soup for that 3 days..
please dont simple bluff me with jagung soup..
i have 3 months no 靚汤滋补滋补
starting to order my menu.. hahaha..
just back for weekend..
is less than 48 hours stay in KK.. but i am so many mamacamcam...
hahaha..

love, roro

Random saturday

不要去羡慕别人的人生，
你看见的，
并不是他们经历的所有。

你只羡慕他们的光鲜外表，
却看不到他们为此付出的代价和努力。

生活不是一定要有惊天动地的情节，才叫精彩。
每个人都在演以自己为主角的偶像剧了，
在这场戏里，你的角色与戏份没有人能够取而代之。

"—— 方文山”

别去羡慕别人！
roro

被爱

怪不得人人渴望被爱，
那种感觉的确幸福，
心中充实得鼓鼓，
像极小的时候，
自幼稚园课室放学出来，
知道妈妈一定在门外等，
门一打开，
便飞奔出来：“妈妈！”扑到母亲怀中，
那便是被爱的感觉。
一生中可遇不可求，
但是，终于得到，泪盈于睫。

（亦舒《谎容》）

就这样

平淡就是我们没话题 还可以相对两不厌。

平淡就是我们没见很久 还是很自在。

平淡就是知道在你身边我可以很随心。

平淡就是 平淡

日子久了，我老了，每件事情看淡了。

以前看重的，现在亦然。只是没那么执着。

笑看人生，做不到。做好自己，做回那自己，是我对自己的要求。

should i? or shouldn't i

i know i should make up my mind now
China? ACCA?
PJ? KL?
Car? No Car?

argghh.. please..
why wanna make up such thing?
cant everything been settled to me?
for the car.. have it or not.. i am not that dream of
i think is typical girl..
you have a car.. then you have it..
no.. then.. stay near to any nearest public transportation..

but these few days i am sooo frust!
i have few training need to go and if not go by car.. i need to talk 3 types of different public transport to reach the place.

i am basically buy a car for training?
does it worth?
damn...

PJ or KL?
sighhh.. another question...
i am PJ girl..
familiar with there..
love the transport, food, and people there...
but.. shit.. my office is in kl wat..

sighhhh.. should i move?
if i do not have a car..
i basically from another jail move to another jail..
i am just car needed person or really need to move to PJ?
i don know.. i wish my mom can help me settled..
i throw to her..
she throw back to me...
sighhh.. i don know ar~~~~~

china and ACCA..
definitely the least important stuff...
i am again..
boros girl..
burn another rm600 ticket..
yeah...
i am like tat..
how many tickets did i burnt?

i don know.. please.. give me a pilot husband so that i can burn whatever ticket i want!
shit!
i wanted to go on the plan i had planned
so that i can have my ACCA and China trip in 1..
but.. there is too many people advise me.. i should not..
sigh...
i don want to play another 6 months just because of the china trip
i don think my 6 months is worth that rm600.. noo..
definately not..
therefore.. answer comes out...

if the answer is so that easily comes out...
i am no need to fan le.. plz.. haih...

sigh, roro

深呼吸

深呼吸
我可以的
加油 肉肉

别被打败了
你可以活得很精彩

cheers, roro

emo

It's just a confirmation.

FaceBook Addicted

Been not active in Facebook quite awhile as there is nothing to play.
I still remember when my Unilife i used to play the games "myShop" and... whatever?
we are competing each other and I always the highest score among my friends
(cause i delete those friends who are higher score than me)
wakakakaz. so bad right?

Facebook really dull..
nothing to post..
as there is too many wisdom people talk to me that
don post too many personal stuff into public..
it brings bad things happen to you

so slowly.. i choose not to post anything
as takut ini takut itu~ =.=llll

that is quite shock today i am superb emo..
posted emo in fb..
there have too many response..
from email, from whatApps, from petronas Lync, from message..
is quite touching..

i do not know the small word emo is actually can have so many people notice about it.
trying myself to active back in FB.
but i really forget how i can really that addicted to it previously?
i have nothing to post..
i prefer type in whatApps 1 by 1.. :)

facebook.. slowly ya.. find back my passion towards u~ slowly...
don rush about it

bored, roro

SCKL

I am sooo boring as there has many event i join i am lazy to blog out while i wanna blog out the event i dint join.

Yes! Standard chatered KL run. Damn..!!

I fall in love in running while this big event i dint go to register. What i can say when registration time i haven fall in love to run? 

Sigh.. The whole day emo as do not want to open fb. There lots of pictures pop out as part of sckl. Sigh.. I wish to run.. My colleague feel sorry to me as she forget to give me her BIB as she hurt her leg. However she already gave me the putrajaya night run as compensate.

There is soo many running event out there and i wonder why i need to pay to run? I already everyday free run?

No idea.. Noooooo idea!

不，乐

今天心情很糟。

是睡得不够吗？

不觉得。

蓝懒星期一吗？

也有可能。

会是因为他吗？

不会吧。

走了的走了

别把我的微笑也带走

喜欢的不再回头

我的男人是工作

做个女强人不是我一直梦想的吗？

遇见一个也把一生嫁给了工作的人

感觉好熟悉

看着他活的自然

活得坦荡

加油！ 

把爸爸给的零用钱兑现吧

爸爸好可爱

这么大了还会给零用钱

拿了卡久久不去兑换

放在钱包里

暖暖的。

属于我最爱的男人的关怀

心烦的答案

当你已知道答案是残酷的

你仍然想从他嘴巴说出来

不管心里已经自我准备了几久

仍然无法从答案里释怀

原来当初的事实竟被你看出那样

有个心思慎密的朋友有时。。。

不管这样，过了一天。我看开了

告诉自己不可带着那种心情过日子

昨晚在跑道上，丝丝快乐从汗水琉璃出来都无法掩盖那泪水的味道

边跑边哭，旁边的人看了会觉得奇怪吧

是在拍戏吗？为何边跑边哭？

承认自己的戏剧细胞满强的。

这点要改一改。

不要每件事情都把它当成戏来看，戏来演。

加油！因为昨晚的心情，搞得自己的心里一点平安也没有。

每件事情不需向人交代，如果这真是你认为的

那就算了。时间会让你证明。我不需开口解释。

今天迟了半个小时起身

心脏好想快跳出来一样

好像上课快迟到了

天知道我搞了多少闹钟就为了提醒我早上也不可懒惰，要去跑步！

今天迟了。做少一点。可是不可以不做！

P/s: 知道这篇还说不出我万分之一的委屈，我看了也MCC

宠坏了

这几个礼拜吃好的，睡好的，有人疼着。

饭来张口，茶来伸手的日子好幸福。

当一切归零的时候，让我变得不知所措。

想了想，之前的我到底怎样生活的？

之前是决不允许自己面对没水喝没东西吃的状况。

钱又忘了按。又糊涂定了撞考时期的机票。当生活面对混乱的时候。好还有你陪着我说话。

很奇怪的，这些混沌的一切，突然变得很清晰。

End of Q3 2013

Reach sept.. Left 4 months 2013 will be go to history..

How's your new year resolutions? Did you achieve anything?

This early of year we having a "bbq night" in ah soon house.. 

Putting "" symbol because of we all not really eating.. (Except for seafood taufu) as i remember that is my 1st time knowing have this process food in this world and i fall in love with it ever since after that. 

Having kong ming deng writing our wishes.. New year resolution.. On a pieces of paper then flew it away.. The highest the more we can achieve..

I remember mine is the highest.. The far_est.. However and it drop in the middle of nowhere.. Then soon laughed at me.. Well.. Ur resolution only can reach till mid of year.. June dah habis..

Wondering it came true or not.. Wondering what soon said is true or not.. 

What is you guyz new year resolutions?

Kyee list down every month what she wanna achieve with..

Jyin almost painted all the faces of the kong ming deng..

I'm not believing in new year resolutions.. I never really will wrote down my hope for the year as i know.. I wont change it by the way..

I hate the responsibilty behind it makes me needed to taking care of.. My life is miserable and i hardly maintain it why would i make myself more stress as giving myself a target?

However, my 1st ever experience having kong ming deng.. As i hope i am really writing down something as my new year resolution.. Here's mine..

I want gam fui! Aka i wan diet aka i wan slim down aka don wan to be fei mui/ fei po in the future..

Nearly end of the year.. Have i achieve it? I am wondering the word from soon does it become true as my weight is really stop decreasing and increasing these few month.. Really.. Middle of the year.. 

Well.. Nevertheless.. My weight isn't decrease but my stamina is increasing.. The noobie do not trust I can finish 8km in 1 hour.. She thought that 5km would takes my 2 hours (as the record of Lok Yuk time we merentas desa) 

流浪

想跑到世界某个角落流浪去

想抛开一切人情世故流浪去

想钻研各个异地小巷流浪去

流浪的血液不停在体内流转着

跑吧，跑吧

September, please be nice to me

Morning uols.. 

Well.. I did long time no wish people in the blog as I thought everyone of us start quiting blogging..

Recently I realize that there is many people is still actually reading my post( I can see from the traffic jam schedule and people start whatApps me asking me are you OK?)

I choose to ignore all these thing as I am afraid that telling you guys the truth.. However after all these days.. Nahhh.. That's not a big deal.. Promising myself do not let my friends worried about me..

September please be nice to me..!! I do agree in the past month I am superb emo.. Sigh.. I hate to admit.. But is guys stuff..

Roanne stuck and emo because of the guys.. Sad case.. Yeah.. But I am a girl.. So.. Yes.. That's not a shame.. Having problem with him makes me have more time to dig out the negative part in my mind.. Shooting everyone in the blog.. Noobie.. Past few post is relating about you.. Sorry I dint mention name in past few post as I do really thought there is no one will look to blog anymore and I do not know the post will create so big a mess.. 

There is another aimless shooting blogpost.. Noobie I do feel that the distance between us is 100 steps and you do not even wan to step forward to me.. So right now.. Come to me babe!!! 

爱上一个人，请把他爱得没心没肺

也不要爱的失去自我。

I think I am the latter case. That is why I choosing to step back as I really pretty hate myself for being that kind of girl.

Thanks for your concern. Thanks for periodically checking me alive or not. Please do not ask me how's your work? ( as i think that's the answer I will put on my tape and let you replay, replay and replay.. Is like tat lo...)

Just ask me to treat u guys makan.. Coz I am enjoy feeding u guys become big fat women and I am slimming down!

Love, roro

coward

Yes.. i admit..
When reach relationship..
I am coward..
This is the 3rd time for this year I warn people do not fall in love to me

I wanted in a clear cut relationship..
Remain friendship will be the best idea..
I told him that friendship is the highest level that we can reach..
I promise I wont jeopardize this relationship..
So do him..

Finally, my heart is remain calm.
Maybe he is really not what I want.
Long distance relationship is not what I want.
I cant stand that when I need him so much but he is not beside me
Cheers dear..

I am not trying to show off or whatever..
but i do really scare..
but scares in what?
too long in single life when comes to couple...
arghhhh..
No No..A big NO!

yeah.. I don even know what kind of guy I wanted now.
Don ask me what I wan..
I think remain lou gu po is the best choice..
I'm tiring in asking myself.. analyze myself and torture myself..

What I really want?
me myself also don know..

When having long heart to heart talk with him..
Yes.. I do relieve..
I admit I don even wanna stable for now..not saying stable..
saying commitment..
I'm not good in cutting everyone off..
I'm sucks..
I do not like to guessing today you are with which girl, doing what.
and I am tiring of scaring that letting you know who i go out eat with today
even I do really have nothing feeling towards them and you know it pretty well.

I guess this is the unfair in the relationship.
You know that I have no heart that's why you are not scare..
You know that nothing can really melt my cold heart and I need to worry who you flirted with today.
(Even I know that is no meaning but sometimes I do jealous after you make me get used to it with you by waken up my feeling)
This is soooo unfair!

To prevent me to become the girl that I hated so much..
A jealousy girl friend..
so...step back.. remain friendship..
We promise each other..

Please do not become the scary girl in the world..checking boyfie this and that roro..please..

If he cant reveal the good side in your life..
Maybe he is not the one that you looking for.
what for I am so busy choosing?
I am still young..

BFF

having a bestie is the most happy ever thing in your life. 

(Sorry for seriously ugly in the photo :)

I found a place to hang out! in LCCT.. >.<

crazy enough huh?

as she back from US.. while waiting for transit back to KK.. there has 6 hours break..

Technically we are not fully utilize the 6 hours..due to check in bla bla bla remeh temeh stuff..

my friend do ask me.. woaw?go so far just for meet a friend?worth or not?

well..I been thinking this question lots too.. worth it or not?

wake up early in the morning reach airport before 7am

having chit chat with her for few hours then i left.

I had asked her if I do not go there, what would you do?

"WhatApps... Chit Chat..Read Novel.."

that time I had make up my mind.. 

no matter how.. I would love to go and see her.

My friend told me before..There is different when you are single and couple.

When you are in couple, you will have commitment, 

as you spend time, money, attention with another person.

For me, having a bestie apply the same thing too.

If I do not grab the chance to meet up when I free, the next time when we meet, 

I wonder when it will be? As everyone of us starting busy. 

We need to spend time together, sacrifice the time money to catch up before the life drown us.

bring us back to the life that can make us recall back the happiness things.

You told me I sounded different.. This is only saying that how long that we did not talk to each other.

and yet you forget how much I hate to talk phone as my sound seriously sound weird when touch technology stuff.

I am trying my best to keep in touch with everyone I care.

I admit I not a good friend for you guys..

My personal characteristic is..straight forward.

and I know all of you had hurt because of my straight and hurt words

I do promise I will try my best to do more better in the future.

I do like malay traditional word.

Maaf zahir dan batin.

:)

Selamat Hari Raya!

p/s: saw ah liew today in LCCT.. he is damn handsome in the uniform. however dint get a chance to say Hi as he is rushing. :)

p/s2: I am quite sad I left 1 more step (buying a ticket back KK)to reach home. I was so stupid so far reach dao airport but I dint get a chance back home. KK..I miss you.. even i just back last week.:)

Love, roro

Happy Independent Day

I love Malaysia..
I do..
I know she still has many things needed to be improved
She is still my lovely home..

The only place i can called as home.
The place i call as home.
Thank you for giving us everything we would ever need.

Yes.. true.. there's probably a lot more work to be done.
But at a place where food, opportunities, and most importantly,
friends are in abundance.

What more can I ask for?

Thank you Malaysia!!

(*For your information 16th Sept is Malaysia) today is just a Independent Day
Please do not get it wrongly. :)

Happy Holiday to uols!!!

The things changed

the more time flies, the more we had lost

Everyday we are busy to get something however there is something we are losing as well

I had no idea what is happening between us however i been tried so hard to recover it and it seems a epic failed plan for me. We cant really clap by using 1 hand and it will be so tired of keep trying hard to resolve the problem and yet you do nothing.

I kinda know the feeling as previously i do the same thing to many people. I am always think that there is nothing in te world can last long forever however i did not counted the relationship between you and me. 

So there is it, the result. And i am giving up. As the step between us is 100 steps, i wish you takes 50 of it but not 1. I am very fair in relationship. If u choose to step 2 steps forward, then i will choose 2 steps forward as well. Good luck on it!

Dear Blog

I had increase 5kg in 2 months and I had no idea how it caused. I had tried to use all the accounting method to figure it out however it is still yet to be solved. I should park this incident under X file of my file. So ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, please do stop me whenever you saw i'm putting satay, lamb chop, ayam rendang, ayam merah paprik, soto, mihoon into my mouth. (Please do not eat with me:) 

Sincerely, 

Roro

You will never found a rainbow when you looking down

KL having rain.. There is a rainbow.. 

I do not have the chance look at it today..

As i down for few days.. Cause of the stupid damning period..

I used to hate the period.. But i like it alwas come on time.. 28 days.. Since primary 5 i get.. Always never failed me except when National Service time.. That is just only 1 time.. 

This thing makes me frustrated for few days.. I do ask myself stop the emo_ness already.. Grrrrrr!!!

Look up!! See the rainbow sunshine on the sky!! Stop emo!! 

Random

Random enough if I'll open my blog and decided to write something on it.

It is few month i decide to cold down my blog. Actively in twitter. This is how i control my emotional. 

Everytime i open this dustbin of feeling, that means.. I do not like my feeling right now and there is no way for me to release it out.

I found out going to gym to kill my time.. To kill my stress.. To kill the random thought that i wish to escape..

However.. Few months later.. The commitment gone.. There is a start for me to feel bored saying in the gym..

There has many factors.. 1 might be due to my weight ino drop but is increase after few months.. I'm fed up with the results. Stop calculate the how close the relationship am i with the earth.. 

Back home earlier today as I not using my lunch hour. Founds out this is a bad idea as LRT is packed with people!! No matter what.. Back home.. Bath.. Think no more please roro

My cutie old look

I hate reading tweets.. -old times

But now.. I do enjoying read every single tweet that showed in my twitter.. 

Every account that i am following even ACCA.. I wish to read their updates.. 

1 day.. I saw this.. Similar like this..

2010- ugly

2011 -ugly

2012 -ugly me!!

While.. I wish to raise my hand and shout out OBJECTION loudy!

Abd then i go and dig out my old picture from nicole fb album..

That's me!! 2010 year K trip with young lulu..

I wish to find 2010-1-1 yoyo night the most fattest picture however i wonder at who's album.. Not in kyee.. I asked her.

Wondering... Hurmm..

After seeing this photo.. Hurm.. 

I put down my hand and silently agree with the statement.. Yes..

However.. Very cute right??

That's showed i do really have this time.. The young fresh look.. Oopss.. Should be the young fat look..

To all that do not believe i am fat before.. I will continuously dig out the old me.. I believe 2009-12-31 tat time i'm the most fattest 1.. Any1 have the picture please whatApps me.. I don mind u publicly showed in fb.. 

It's ugly.. But still me.. I cant wipe off the fattest me.. Coz until now.. I am still feel that time.. I live very happy.. 

Cheers, roro

Am i happy?

I am cheerful people.. I admit!

I like to laugh.. Yes i am!

I wish to give you all of my happiness..

Wondering why i am vulnerable these few days.. Getting the job i really wanted.

Coping the obstacles that irritating.. Over and over again with routine daily life.. 

I am become anti-social people.. Outsider do see i'm having lots of friends.. Having crazy days in KL. however.. Deep down in my heart.. I do know that.. I'm wearing my poker face..

Roro.. Stop the fake smile.. How can i really find the old me? Or i just lost her forever?

I wondering what is my aim? I always believe that.. No resolution.. No disaapointment.. No expectation.. No more hurt.. 

Roro.. Stop complaining.. Stop yawning for no reason.. Just another emo day.. 

Strawberries

Never wanted to become a group of strawberry..

But in the reality is.. I do.. I am really vulnerable.. Once push hard.. I'll splash..

想你了!!!

越在乎的人，

＂对不起＂就越不会对你说，就算是我的错。

这世界上只有一个人在我生气时，

为了求我原谅，能做到跪地献茶

这事件让我感觉到，她真的很珍惜我们的友情。

我那时真的自尊高到想放弃友情的地步。

自尊是我的全部，我可以为了保存我的骄傲放弃一切

是她教会我永远都不能对她骄傲，

因为对她，骄傲，这是不存在的。

长大了

随时给自己一个微笑，告诉自己，可以的！

累吗?

其实说起来
也没做什么事情
可是就是觉得力不从心

我想是因为
因为我觉得的原因吧

新人是我一直扮演的角色
Petronas, BCCM KL, KPMG KK, 大学生, 学员传道会
一到变成老人
我就力不从心了

新人我办得太好了
无忧无虑, 新人嘛~
喜欢不受束缚的感觉
一变成老人就要有责任感
对每件事情都要有的责任

负责任
这是我永远fail掉的科门

我不想质问自己
我做的选择是对的吗?
离开亲爱的家人朋友
搬到一个从来不认识的地区
没人陪着吃晚餐
没人一起度过的假日
有时候很想阻止自己想抛开一切
为什么有好好的家不要
跑来受苦难

只希望这些能靠着时间
淡化的坏情绪
我很简单
选择的事情
从不回头
不想质疑自己的梦想
不想被生活给打败

心累的, roro

需要人陪

不是不能生存
而是心里有个空洞
放进什么都很像都满足不了

20. 25

20岁的我
想的，是考完试后去哪里玩
槟城，马六甲，热浪岛？

25岁的我
面对一群精力旺盛的20岁
头脑想着
.....
年轻真好

只相差5年而已
每一个人
都有每一个不同的阶段
我过了疯狂玩乐的阶段
不后悔 因为我觉得过得精彩
只是我还不想那么快脱离20岁

最近有很多朋友都来问候
你过得怎样
好吗？
我都回答
我讨厌为生活而奔跑的日子
每个人都给了大同小异的答案
没办法， 这就是生活啊

KK 给了一个很妙的答案
他给你钱，你的时间就是他的
然后我们就讨论的天花地乱，不知所踪
的确！
他给了我钱，我的时间就是他的
别想多了
我要很多钱，你可以把我的时间都买完吗？

顺其自然，roro

行李

每一次去KL,回KK
总是被人家说带完整个KK去
可是真的有那么多吗？
我每次都不觉得
因为全都是我需要的

但是，这次KL行，
我的行李，可说是带完半个KK去了
还分批去着呢。
nicole到了，决定了呆在那至少一年
yap也要去了
我〜就快了！
noobie也拍拍屁股等时间了

算不算半个KK了？
我觉得这次是我带最多行李去的一次
多得我好满足！

love, roro

maggie mee

post 了很久

今天发现

它根本藏在draft里迟迟不露脸

在看上去

真的很maggie

可惜头发不吃

一个月而已

现在变成发涨的面条

很想一把剪了我的头发

可是我知道

我超不舍得

二月的第一天

终于结束了人生中的一个工作
不能说是第一个
可却是第一个上千的工作
可我觉得非常儿戏
拿钱拿得有点心虚
还是，工作就是这样？
就是忙忙碌碌一个月就是那样过去了？
那么为什么工作有分高低呢？
严格说，我想回到过去我做的每一份暑假工
讨回我应得的薪水

第一份
没特别的好些
没特别的坏
是心态关系了吗？
觉得人生就是如此
没有起伏
心态是一种催化剂
时间也是

时间宁愿拿来看看戏
聊聊天，
一些以前看重的问题
现在都把它当成空闲时拿来啃牙做嘴巴运动

现在有点理解
那种累不是反复的累
而是被疲累空袭心灵
不想管的累
现在才知道
以前的我有多么的空闲

时间，心态
放手也是一种幸福
真的
我不会勉强你了
影子，不能说你受委屈了
只能说，我会开始慢慢适应置身为大人的反应