coward

Yes.. i admit..
When reach relationship..
I am coward..
This is the 3rd time for this year I warn people do not fall in love to me

I wanted in a clear cut relationship..
Remain friendship will be the best idea..
I told him that friendship is the highest level that we can reach..
I promise I wont jeopardize this relationship..
So do him..

Finally, my heart is remain calm.
Maybe he is really not what I want.
Long distance relationship is not what I want.
I cant stand that when I need him so much but he is not beside me
Cheers dear..

I am not trying to show off or whatever..
but i do really scare..
but scares in what?
too long in single life when comes to couple...
arghhhh..
No No..A big NO!

yeah.. I don even know what kind of guy I wanted now.
Don ask me what I wan..
I think remain lou gu po is the best choice..
I'm tiring in asking myself.. analyze myself and torture myself..

What I really want?
me myself also don know..

When having long heart to heart talk with him..
Yes.. I do relieve..
I admit I don even wanna stable for now..not saying stable..
saying commitment..
I'm not good in cutting everyone off..
I'm sucks..
I do not like to guessing today you are with which girl, doing what.
and I am tiring of scaring that letting you know who i go out eat with today
even I do really have nothing feeling towards them and you know it pretty well.

I guess this is the unfair in the relationship.
You know that I have no heart that's why you are not scare..
You know that nothing can really melt my cold heart and I need to worry who you flirted with today.
(Even I know that is no meaning but sometimes I do jealous after you make me get used to it with you by waken up my feeling)
This is soooo unfair!

To prevent me to become the girl that I hated so much..
A jealousy girl friend..
so...step back.. remain friendship..
We promise each other..

Please do not become the scary girl in the world..checking boyfie this and that roro..please..

If he cant reveal the good side in your life..
Maybe he is not the one that you looking for.
what for I am so busy choosing?
I am still young..

BFF

having a bestie is the most happy ever thing in your life. 

(Sorry for seriously ugly in the photo :)

I found a place to hang out! in LCCT.. >.<

crazy enough huh?

as she back from US.. while waiting for transit back to KK.. there has 6 hours break..

Technically we are not fully utilize the 6 hours..due to check in bla bla bla remeh temeh stuff..

my friend do ask me.. woaw?go so far just for meet a friend?worth or not?

well..I been thinking this question lots too.. worth it or not?

wake up early in the morning reach airport before 7am

having chit chat with her for few hours then i left.

I had asked her if I do not go there, what would you do?

"WhatApps... Chit Chat..Read Novel.."

that time I had make up my mind.. 

no matter how.. I would love to go and see her.

My friend told me before..There is different when you are single and couple.

When you are in couple, you will have commitment, 

as you spend time, money, attention with another person.

For me, having a bestie apply the same thing too.

If I do not grab the chance to meet up when I free, the next time when we meet, 

I wonder when it will be? As everyone of us starting busy. 

We need to spend time together, sacrifice the time money to catch up before the life drown us.

bring us back to the life that can make us recall back the happiness things.

You told me I sounded different.. This is only saying that how long that we did not talk to each other.

and yet you forget how much I hate to talk phone as my sound seriously sound weird when touch technology stuff.

I am trying my best to keep in touch with everyone I care.

I admit I not a good friend for you guys..

My personal characteristic is..straight forward.

and I know all of you had hurt because of my straight and hurt words

I do promise I will try my best to do more better in the future.

I do like malay traditional word.

Maaf zahir dan batin.

:)

Selamat Hari Raya!

p/s: saw ah liew today in LCCT.. he is damn handsome in the uniform. however dint get a chance to say Hi as he is rushing. :)

p/s2: I am quite sad I left 1 more step (buying a ticket back KK)to reach home. I was so stupid so far reach dao airport but I dint get a chance back home. KK..I miss you.. even i just back last week.:)

Love, roro

Happy Independent Day

I love Malaysia..
I do..
I know she still has many things needed to be improved
She is still my lovely home..

The only place i can called as home.
The place i call as home.
Thank you for giving us everything we would ever need.

Yes.. true.. there's probably a lot more work to be done.
But at a place where food, opportunities, and most importantly,
friends are in abundance.

What more can I ask for?

Thank you Malaysia!!

(*For your information 16th Sept is Malaysia) today is just a Independent Day
Please do not get it wrongly. :)

Happy Holiday to uols!!!

The things changed

the more time flies, the more we had lost

Everyday we are busy to get something however there is something we are losing as well

I had no idea what is happening between us however i been tried so hard to recover it and it seems a epic failed plan for me. We cant really clap by using 1 hand and it will be so tired of keep trying hard to resolve the problem and yet you do nothing.

I kinda know the feeling as previously i do the same thing to many people. I am always think that there is nothing in te world can last long forever however i did not counted the relationship between you and me. 

So there is it, the result. And i am giving up. As the step between us is 100 steps, i wish you takes 50 of it but not 1. I am very fair in relationship. If u choose to step 2 steps forward, then i will choose 2 steps forward as well. Good luck on it!

Dear Blog

I had increase 5kg in 2 months and I had no idea how it caused. I had tried to use all the accounting method to figure it out however it is still yet to be solved. I should park this incident under X file of my file. So ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, please do stop me whenever you saw i'm putting satay, lamb chop, ayam rendang, ayam merah paprik, soto, mihoon into my mouth. (Please do not eat with me:) 

Sincerely, 

Roro

You will never found a rainbow when you looking down

KL having rain.. There is a rainbow.. 

I do not have the chance look at it today..

As i down for few days.. Cause of the stupid damning period..

I used to hate the period.. But i like it alwas come on time.. 28 days.. Since primary 5 i get.. Always never failed me except when National Service time.. That is just only 1 time.. 

This thing makes me frustrated for few days.. I do ask myself stop the emo_ness already.. Grrrrrr!!!

Look up!! See the rainbow sunshine on the sky!! Stop emo!! 

Random

Random enough if I'll open my blog and decided to write something on it.

It is few month i decide to cold down my blog. Actively in twitter. This is how i control my emotional. 

Everytime i open this dustbin of feeling, that means.. I do not like my feeling right now and there is no way for me to release it out.

I found out going to gym to kill my time.. To kill my stress.. To kill the random thought that i wish to escape..

However.. Few months later.. The commitment gone.. There is a start for me to feel bored saying in the gym..

There has many factors.. 1 might be due to my weight ino drop but is increase after few months.. I'm fed up with the results. Stop calculate the how close the relationship am i with the earth.. 

Back home earlier today as I not using my lunch hour. Founds out this is a bad idea as LRT is packed with people!! No matter what.. Back home.. Bath.. Think no more please roro

My cutie old look

I hate reading tweets.. -old times

But now.. I do enjoying read every single tweet that showed in my twitter.. 

Every account that i am following even ACCA.. I wish to read their updates.. 

1 day.. I saw this.. Similar like this..

2010- ugly

2011 -ugly

2012 -ugly me!!

While.. I wish to raise my hand and shout out OBJECTION loudy!

Abd then i go and dig out my old picture from nicole fb album..

That's me!! 2010 year K trip with young lulu..

I wish to find 2010-1-1 yoyo night the most fattest picture however i wonder at who's album.. Not in kyee.. I asked her.

Wondering... Hurmm..

After seeing this photo.. Hurm.. 

I put down my hand and silently agree with the statement.. Yes..

However.. Very cute right??

That's showed i do really have this time.. The young fresh look.. Oopss.. Should be the young fat look..

To all that do not believe i am fat before.. I will continuously dig out the old me.. I believe 2009-12-31 tat time i'm the most fattest 1.. Any1 have the picture please whatApps me.. I don mind u publicly showed in fb.. 

It's ugly.. But still me.. I cant wipe off the fattest me.. Coz until now.. I am still feel that time.. I live very happy.. 

Cheers, roro