coward

Yes.. i admit..
When reach relationship..
I am coward..
This is the 3rd time for this year I warn people do not fall in love to me

I wanted in a clear cut relationship..
Remain friendship will be the best idea..
I told him that friendship is the highest level that we can reach..
I promise I wont jeopardize this relationship..
So do him..

Finally, my heart is remain calm.
Maybe he is really not what I want.
Long distance relationship is not what I want.
I cant stand that when I need him so much but he is not beside me
Cheers dear..

I am not trying to show off or whatever..
but i do really scare..
but scares in what?
too long in single life when comes to couple...
arghhhh..
No No..A big NO!

yeah.. I don even know what kind of guy I wanted now.
Don ask me what I wan..
I think remain lou gu po is the best choice..
I'm tiring in asking myself.. analyze myself and torture myself..

What I really want?
me myself also don know..

When having long heart to heart talk with him..
Yes.. I do relieve..
I admit I don even wanna stable for now..not saying stable..
saying commitment..
I'm not good in cutting everyone off..
I'm sucks..
I do not like to guessing today you are with which girl, doing what.
and I am tiring of scaring that letting you know who i go out eat with today
even I do really have nothing feeling towards them and you know it pretty well.

I guess this is the unfair in the relationship.
You know that I have no heart that's why you are not scare..
You know that nothing can really melt my cold heart and I need to worry who you flirted with today.
(Even I know that is no meaning but sometimes I do jealous after you make me get used to it with you by waken up my feeling)
This is soooo unfair!

To prevent me to become the girl that I hated so much..
A jealousy girl friend..
so...step back.. remain friendship..
We promise each other..

Please do not become the scary girl in the world..checking boyfie this and that roro..please..

If he cant reveal the good side in your life..
Maybe he is not the one that you looking for.
what for I am so busy choosing?
I am still young..