painful day!!

today.. i think it is a hard day for me.. i very hate girl's 28 day.. really.. i hate why girl need to received this kind of suffer? why god made people so unfair.. But at the moment i type this word, i kinda realise why god do like this, this is because he wat boy to protect girl, am i right? my dear father? hehe.. altough i know this, but i cant accept the pain in my body, yesterday i already know that i'll come.. the event of 28! but i already forget how pain is it. i make myself sleep until 10am.. hehe.. but i think is i'm lazy.. then.. i go ppum take picture abt the management assignment. today very hot!! especially i still go out when nooon.. haih. . then i still go to 12 coll take pic.. haih.. but we take wrong road.. go to mid valley's road.. haha.. after 12 coll, we still go back fpp... tat time i cant tahan anymore.. i go to vomit.. uuueeekk.. haha.. finally i release all the painful inside my body.. kakaZ.. then, my gang wanna go see choir contest today.. haha.. i think that i wanna skip the "party".. i feel very tired.. haha.. i sleep from 3pm to 7pm.. haha.. later i eat 2 biji menstrual.. then.. sure today wont so pain.. kakaz.. i heard so long the choir contest.. haha.. i think 7 coll n 9 coll is the best.. but of course i want my coll win this contest!! dang dang dang dang!! the winner is 9 college!! war... happy.. finally, congratulation to choir member! u all done a good job, well done! geng!

STPM

stpm result is release last two days. some of my friend would just score not well in their stpm. i don know what can i do for them? condolences? consolation? no, i dont think they want that from me~ take me to their side, if i have this kind of result, all i want is just let me release all my feelings all my words. i wan to bother people, not let people bother me. i guess, cause i think that i find the people who i closed with, who i trust, who is my best friend. i mean i dont know am i a best friend or them. i dont dare call them too. i scare i'm bother them or what. cause we left secondary school so long.i dont know our relationship is strong enough like before cause we go through so many things. and i'm not beside they these few years. i dont know~ GOOD LUCK! pals~

PKV - fragment show

A fragment show was showing inKPS by PKV for the easter celebration. i go there watch. actually i was totally do not want to go, cause of my assignment, i havent done the managerial economic 2's assignment which need to pass up tonight, and i know if i do not go there, they will be many people dissapointed. they will scold me "put their aeroplane" haha~ but finally i went to that show also. before i touch the show, i would like to touch a bit my friend, my friend, i invited them go to watch the show with me, two of them promise me at 3pm but they "put me aeroplane" in 5 pm.. the show start at 8pm. gosh~ i dint blame them. i know how busy are we. i know. it just like my feeling feel not very well. well, but for this time, while i typing these word, i dint feel anything. yes, i really dint blame you all. i feel lucky that i dint voice up my anger to my friend yesterday. i dont want our friendship get fragment because of this small thing. yes, i enjoy the show. although i'm not totally understand the meaning of this show. but, there is one word i want to get it in my mind, use it remind me all the time. I'M HERE NOT TO JUDGE YOU, I'M HERE FOR YOU~

-20%-

i just over my FAR midterm exam. it consist of 20% of the whole 100% marks. i want myself to do great in this exam. i think i am. but the truth is no! i dont know how to do at all! it seems different with the text book and tutorial that i have studied yesterday. maybe this is called i just go through 20%of the book, i dint finish read, study, understand the 80% of the spiceland. sigh~ i even don know wat my feelings now? i feel depress when i finish the exam. i feel waana die in front of the lecturer who collect my paper. i want ask my lecturer no need marks my paper because it is so horrible, i don even know what am i write?! i have the desire not to write down my name, want to retake, i think i just pass up my mc letter then asking for retake just like oili. i really want. but, i know that i don dare! Coward! roanne is Coward! stupid! useless!

=afraid=

i know i'm afraid now. but i don know is it 100% afraid~ usually at the mid term examination we will peeped at our neighbour's paper. 10 hours later's paper i also thought like that. i am. but, today , i inform that we will be examined in exam hall. there are no such peeped action can be done. exam hall very big, clear, got cctv and lectures. there is no way we can peeped neighbour's paper. but tomorow exam contain 20% marks. how? my brain now is stuck! i can think, memorise, remember anything. save me!

*wondering*

i just back from pasar malam, in other word, a market that sells anythings in 1 street. there place in ss2, petaling jaya. well, today before i move on, i have already predict there is gonna be raining after that. but don know why, i din bring my umbrella, even my purse! i just put rm50 and my ic, my two handphone inside my pocket then i'm out. haha. it sound lazy~ this is the 1st time i'm going out like that, feelings~ not comfortable~ maybe my pocket is small. and i ussually will bring many things out, i feel weird, strange, and of course i'm wet because of raining like i mention just now. i hope that i wont sick after this. plus i'm not so weak, sick because of get rain? haha.i hope i wont. i don wan get illness. well, i spend 50 for this PM trip. haha.. treat shin yi eat, and of course i need to eat also, buy a stock, 3 for rm10 that kind, 1 handfree, case for my c902,and a t shirt for only rm5.. haha.. i think i'm very save my money, only buy the things i need it. but i wondering where is my money left, as u all who know how to calculate, knows that all the things i buy dint exceed for 50. then, where is money left? kakaz~ wondering(my topic) feww..

$$$

money~ where is my money? Ans: in my bank. How to get it? Ans: use ATM card. where is my ATM card? Ans: at my brother there. When i can get it back? Ans: i DONT know! i don have money already! i just ask my dad give me some. the story~ dad,i dont have money already, can u give me? dad: where ur money? ........ ok, how much you want? anne: how much you have? Dad: i have RM1, u want? lol! bad daddy~ finaaly he give me rm200. sigh~ there is not enough for this week. i still owe michelle rm50(installment) haha~ CC trip rm75~ i left? i don dare to count it!just wish that my money can faster faster come back to my site! haha~

my gang's member

ya. i know. tomorrow i have a important test, yes, i'm now still posting my feelings, yes, i know i dint study. but, who cares?! no one care! i feel i so stupid. i do not understand what is d spiceland want to told me. (spiceland is a reference book for FAR1,2&3) yes, my gang member is all genius! i feel i'm dumb when i compared with them. why? god, why they are more intelligent compare with me. why they are so genius, why they only need to read once then will understand the whole things? why i read twice also do not understand at all! why? there got one of my gang member who homesick very much~ yes, me too! i'm homesick too. but i need to done all my assignment also, i need to study, need to do by myself! why she can go back rest and enjoy and throw everything ask me help her do her assignment?! why? do you all know how stressful am i? no~ if u know u wont blame me why i do not want to help her do assignment. my reason is not ask her be independent! my reason s just~ is just JEALOUS with her! yes, i really jealous. why she seems like no stress about education, financial support. why she can go shoppping spend 400 once a week also do not care? why when she homesick call back home, her mother can easily voice out come back to hometown skip all the lecturer, tutorial, and spend 500 in the airplane ticket? why? why for me is totally different with her. conclusion. JEALOUS!

Anythings~ my old time

I talk to myself that I would not talk to you anymore. Then what is the consequence? Heart getting so hurt. Am I stupid?? Why am I need to talk so much with he. I started know what is call illness is come from what you eat. Then the disaster is come from what you have talked. I have learned this lesson today. I wan to be more rational. Don’t want to be so emotional. I can live without anyone. I survive until now without you accompany. I trust myself that I can also live wonderfully without you. Yes. That’s my motive in today. Nothing will change in my life. Only that my life become bored.

Valentine day is just passing away. I was having a great day on that day. This proves that I can enjoy my life even you are not with me. I always thought that you are so understand me. But the truth shows me that is not true. Why we need to go through all his things? There is too much plough around us. We can’t go through all those plough. We can’t blame each other. Cant. You have forgiven me so many times. Thanx!

leave me alone!

I'm wondering why all of my friend like to post their feelings show to other? i cant do it. i feel like my secret i want to keep myself, i do not other people know all my feelings. Well, i hope any visitor who come accidentally to my blog can kindly DON'T leave any comment, please. thanks. i just want express my feeling to word only for release my stress. deal? thanks anyway~