just being randomly looking back my blog

i dumpthe blog as this is hard for me and not convenience for me to upload photo and make it pretty.

i am not the organize people. therefore when dayre introduced. i am fall in love with it. 

some people might feel blog just because you have a reader. but for me. no. 

blog is just to express my overloaded feeling. good, bad and most of the time. mumbling boringness.

true. when i am happy. i am surrounded by happiness. when i am sad.. i am surrounding by tears. 

just when i am emo and do not know what can i do. 

relook back my post.. 

it is all because of him?

that;s true, never underestimate a relationship for a girl. 

it will tore you apart. tooks few months even years to recover. 

marks the date he had leave me more than a year. 

on the exactly a year he get his a new girl friends, a big boobs, a body shape that i want to get away off.

but this kind of girl manage to get his heart. 

had watch a dramacall...i don remember...

got a dialog that makes me thinks carefully.

the drama was a bff (guy and girl)they kissed when they drunk.the girl forget the kiss scene while the guy do remember. and yet. the girl ask the guy just forget everything about last night memory. (because she was drunk and all her memory was mess up) the guy feels sad because he thought the girl has nofeeling towards him.

if you were the girl.. (as if you remember what is the awful things you had done when you drunk) what is the reaction you will do to the guy? i willchoose the same way as the girldid. girl do paiseh and do not know what to react.

and yes. i do the samething to him as well. i choose to not going back to before this issit he has his unfinish word before i say let'sforget about last night.

i choose to. so that makes me myself not to so senka and vain attempt to think how important am i in his heart. not worth dear.. not worth.

let it over and move forward. it takes time for me to forget him.(almost a year) when look into his picture i stll feel the heart broke down.i choose to hide his newsfeed. whenever he comment to our mutual friends i have the feeling to hide ourmutual friends feed as well..

dear.. i know it takes time..but it has a good progress.. dont they?

time is the best healer ever. takes time..bit by bits..

you have HIM to accompany you go through this way. when you old.. you look back.. this is just another chilidish ever relationship you have in your life. that time. you smiled and leave over.. just like nothing happen. 

i know that. the time will come when you are no longer can affect my feeling. 

Hey Dear

you should..

you should start focussing to study..

seeing the checklist..

you have way more to go..

you should go to study like now..

left few more days and yet you are still getting your bad habit here?

Facebook, Insta, Candy crush??

gosh..i miss Blogger..

i am so in love in typing but not writting..

my hand is pain and swollen or whatever (forgive my bad english..) fo trying to write 10 pages essays in 3 hours..hurm..copy actually..

copying answer..to train back my writting skills.

and again.. my writing is as lousy cakar ayam if i rish..but this time around.. no time to show offmy beautiful handwritting to examiner...


dear..you can do it!! just 50%!

get this done and you proudly say..2 down! 3 to go in February 2015.

you can do it!!!!!

Seriousity mad at you

Wake up in the morning from sharon lovely call and cant sleep back again. 

In this lovely morning do nothing i recall back the day and we spent together. Not sure why.. I damn miss you in this moment

Like the photo says thousand word. I should leave it behind and never look back. 

You are not my destiny so do i.we have too much difference yet so many similar stuff. The promise u made to me where wanted to pamper me using all your strength and heart it turns out just another blank cheque from you. 

Dear roro.. Be clever.. Shut down the heart so that wont stupidly get hurt. Is tired keep on hurt. My brains knows it well.. Now just my heart never getting the cruel lesson. 

Sorry to say that. Again. I miss him

Positivism

There is too many people spreading hates, jealousy, unsatisfaction nowsadays.

So do me. I am trying my best to get rid of those things by away of those people but u do know we cant get away from colleagues

Luckily she juz my colleagues not my boss anyway. 

With the sweetest smile and the degree of lifting from my face is increasing whenever with u guys. 

Tried so much time to find those days that i missed but actually it can easily be found whenever be with the ppl i get close with. Hard to believe people nowsadays. Getting professional and kill the happy go lucky aka slumber me

I can only be childish when at here. Can easily wasted my loaded childish. 😳

Kiasu people

coming to work on holiday means kiasu?
well.. for me.. that is not a kiasu characteristic.

who ever wants to come to work on public holiday?
i wish i can lying on my bed now to shoo away my sickness.. my cough.. my flu.. my fever..
who wants to care about this YECO(year ENd Carry Over)

is the previous years not reported the EXACT figure as in system.. now you wish  us to help you reconcile?
WTH!!!

for.. me.. everything unreported cost.. juz bring it up and shows to PMU.. nah.. this is our overall cost..
PMU: why is it means unreported cost?
US: unreported cost.. means.. previous cost does not report, therefore report it now.
PMU: why previous years not reported?
US: (os) why nag at us.. i juz came in on middle of march ok? i'm clearing shit everyday.. :(

i likes my job.. but dont make me fall as sick and cant back home cause of my job...
shout awhile.. jyin and her gang coming over and fetch me go kai kai.. weeee.. sick jor also don want behave..
please scold jyin.. she is the 1 who desperately wants to go out!

New year..

password protected

thinking about getting the setting blog that can set a password.. have the password to enter and read it.
but the thing is.. who i going to hide from?

the person that i wish not to read i never give him my personal little place..
but the feeling of uncertainty is magnifies especially everytime i wish to write down something personal..

stupid me that thinking too much..
there is nothing to care about..

quote that i like..

#i don care!
#am i look like i care about it?

sorry to say that.. i miss him now..

forget about it (forward)

有喜有悲才是人生，有苦有甜才是生活。
无论是繁华还是苍凉，看过的风景就不要太留恋，毕竟你不前行生活还要前行。
再大的伤痛，睡一觉就把它忘了。

背着昨天追赶明天，会累坏了每一个当下。
边走边忘，才能感受到每一个迎面而来的幸福。
烦恼不过夜，健忘才幸福。

random friday

bored, 

lazy, 

no feel wanna do my work, 

want to sleep

i wanna sleeep

annual dinner... how can i throw an annual dinner?

i don know...

i don even how to find the hotel.. grrr...

random friday...

pre-weekend moody..

whatever..

坏了

当你需要用电话来证明自己的存在时，

恭喜你！你忙到一个不行了！

完全不晓得时间的流逝，

当电话当机没的用，手上没手表，自己又觉得肥到一个不行，喉咙开始发痒，身体拼了命提醒你，快撑不住了。

那很想对你说，

Welcome to the club!!

这几个礼拜超忙，忙到晓得能睡觉是艰难的事。

忙到头昏脑胀。

醒来第一件事，不再是拿起手机看信息，而是盘算着今天的workload, deadline是什么？

躺下最后一件事也不再是看电话，而是不知不觉，也不懂有没有刷牙冲凉，倒下，睡着了！

电话坏了，风扇坏了，忙晕了。

每件事情都不顺利，都忙着和我作对。

想赶紧嫁个老公享受算了。

晕了。累了。病了。肥了。疯了！

Phobia of bak kut teh

A meat lover like me scares of pork now..

The smells of pork does it really like jinyin said before? 

腥味.. I thought that smell i would never feel nyiak.. 

But if two days consecutives eat bak kut teh..

Arrghhh.. Stop stop.. I'll back to eat vege for like few days before recover from that pork smelly..

Even now i exhale the pork breathe i can still smell it. Damn..

Watch few short video on why pork is not advisable to eat?

Aside diet, i really wanted to know why?

Founds out.. Hurmmm.. That reason still cant scares me off..

U need to come out with a solid reason that really impact in my life.. 

Sigh.. Never ever ask me go for bak kut teh le..

I will rather eat rice if u want me to eat bak kut teh.. Officially announce. Bak kut teh hater here! Damn..

Shitty roro

Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome

fuiyoh..
typing the title i already like professional~!!
yupe.. i guess this is my sickness..if you feel curious about it can click Here!!
fuiyoh again to me.. 1st time do hyperlink in blog.. :P

it is normal especially for girls..
the more i read
(doctor actually not explain details)
coz i wants to know more before i go to see doc..
so i do read lots..

this 1
ini lagi
and banyak lagi...

so.. when the doctor says..
i have some basic understanding.. oh yeah.. i macam read it before..
go back and check back again..

according to doc.. seriously.. this is common problem for girls
i check how it is common.. realize really.. superb common..
why i say like that... quote from some webpage..
"膝外翻常見於女性，在路上常見許多X型腿(X型腿是指兩足並立時，首先是兩側膝關節碰在一起，而兩足跟則靠不攏，走路出現兩膝打架互碰的步態。雙腳併攏后只有膝蓋能接觸到，大腿小腿間都有縫隙。)的女孩"

he said for beginner stage..
my condition is still normal.. still acceptable..
i feel grateful that it is..
i still can run~ <3

just be smart in run..
no more hill run of coz..
so.. i will reduce it..
treadmill is ok..
no more go outside run..
once in awhile marathon still can..

blekkk...
my friends laugh me..
your doc sure do no know what is your extent of "jogging"
he has no idea at all..
haha..
he just asked me.. dulu do i run?
i say no.. but i am not that princess cant even run or what..
that all he asked.. hahaha..

he don know that i can run for 1 or 2 hour everyday.. minimun really 1 hour that type of exercise..
well.. he no need to know..
i just need to control myself..
run safe..

next.. just i am lazy to type.. and have a place for me to check back..
the stretching that i want to do..

*“X”型腿的治療和預防方法
X型腿不同程度的矯正　　X”形腿是指站立時，兩膝併攏時兩腳不能併攏，間隔距離為1.5 cm以上。它同樣是由於先天遺傳，後天營養不良，幼兒時期坐、走姿勢不正確所引起的，造成股骨內收、內旋和股骨外展、外旋所形成的一種骨關節異常現象。它的矯正困難根大，但只要堅持，也會收到一定的效果。
矯正操的目的是加強腿部練習，使大腿內側群肌肉的力量得到加強，小腿三頭肌得到經常的鍛煉。
(1)坐在椅子上，兩手后撐，足踝處夾一物體(可由厚換薄)，兩膝併攏，然後直腿上舉至水平，再下落，15一20次X3組。
(2)兩腿屈膝坐地，膝外開，腳掌相對，兩臂彎曲，兩手扶在膝關節內側，用力下壓膝關節，至最大限度保持2秒，再還原。
(3)直腿坐，兩手體后撐地，兩膝間夾一軟物(如小皮球)，用橡皮筋將踝關節捆住，練習5分鐘。要求小腿用力夾物體。
(4)兩腿開立成二位，兩膝盡量向兩邊分開，挺胸立背，屈膝半群，慢慢抬起腳跟，然後下落，反覆提起並下落腳跟，直至小腿有酸脹感。
(5)小腿向內側踢毽子，兩腿交替進行。
內踝間距在3-6cm者，可非手術治療：白天按摩大腿外側肌肉，晚上在小兒入睡後作兩踝及股骨髁靠攏並以繃帶綁緊或利用夾板固定來逐漸矯正;補鈣和維生素D，並多曬太陽。
內踝間距在6-9cm者，可手術治療：(1)膝關節外側骨骺阻滯術(2)股骨髁上截骨術,您可與骨科醫師聯繫諮詢矯正辦法(包括手術)。
*矯正X型腿的矯正操(一)
1.對外八字腳患者，行走時，每走一步都要讓自己感覺到兩膝內側有輕擦的過程;隨時隨地選擇有直線地面，兩腳正直踩線行進練習。同樣主要靠生活中堅持。 2.X形腿的矯治練習，每天1～2遍：
第一節壓膝運動：正坐，兩腳掌相靠，兩手扶膝輕輕下壓。注意腳掌不要分開，膝蓋壓到不能再壓時，停耗一定時間。
1. 壓法：坐在平坦的地方，腳掌合攏，兩手放在雙膝內側向下慢慢按壓，然後雙膝最大限度分開，保持5-10秒鐘，還原。重複15-20次。
2. 拉引法：坐在平坦的地方，兩腿盡量併攏放平，在左右腳腕上拴一條長50厘米的橡皮筋。 然後兩腳用力向外拉引70-100厘米再放鬆還原。重複20-30次。
3. 夾物法：坐在寬凳上，雙手撐於身後，兩腳觸地，膝屈(90度)，腳腕處緊夾一質軟物品。然後雙腳離地、伸膝、兩腿盡量上抬，保持5-10秒鐘，放鬆還原，注意物不能掉(物品的選擇由大到小，直到能夾住一張紙為準)。重複20-30次。
4. 外翻法：並腳站立，身體微微前俯、半蹲、雙膝用力外翻，同時雙手向外按壓雙膝內側5-10秒鐘后，起立還原放鬆。重複20-30次。
5. 踢毽子法：用腳內側踢毽子，左右腳交換踢,左右腿各踢20-30個，共練習4組。
第二節捆腿練習：坐位，兩腿併攏抬起，以布帶捆住腳腕，兩腳用力向左右掙動。
3.非手術療法有一些，需長期不懈的堅持，可以嘗試：1.走“貓步”。2.盤膝坐20～30分鐘並交替雙腿，每天1～2次。同時按摩腿內側肌肉，增加肌張力以矯正畸形。
矯正X型腿的矯正操(二)
第1式 緊實大腿運動1. 坐在椅子1/3處，腰桿打直身體向上伸展。
2. 雙手置於坐椅兩旁，左腳抬起向前，腳尖朝上。　3. 還原換邊重複8~12下，共3次。
第2式 腿內側運動　1. 坐在椅子1/3處，雙手手肘置於大腿內側。
2. 雙手手肘用力往外撐，大腿用力向內收。
3. 形成抗力停留5~10秒。
4. 重複8~12下，共3次。

long.. i know ha.. :P

relieve, roro

Jam

Traffic jam for the way to LCCT back to KK

I am so tired as yesterday could not sleep properly and today reach office at 7am sharp for me to leave office on 4pm sharp. 

Been busy for whole day like a bee handover this and that and still teasinv by colleagues. 

Late for 30 minutes leave the office then wala~ 

Sleeeeeep deep in the bus. Auto wake up after 1 hour started to nervous that.. What the hell.. Belum sampai Airport yet?  OMG OMG OMG

If late to catchthe flight.. How?

What should i do?

Nahhhhhh it does not matter la..

Just back kl continue sleeep

Is only can think like that

Next time i would not take bus.. 

I would take ERL train..(fuiyoh.. 4X expensive than bus)

Blekkk.. Normal la..

Working level is different ma

I would be prefer the time is under my control..

Next time i back no need check flight ticket also.. 

Company will pay for me.. 3 times for a year.. Just use it.. Argghhh.. Hopefully..

Really get to airport on time.. Counting down..

My phone batt also counting down.. I am gonna be crazy.... 

Crazy,roro

Garret Popcorn

The overpriced pop corn

The branded pop corn

I do not know when i am started to think about branded stuff.. LV, CHANNEL.. 

I wanted to blame it Kyee.. Hahaha

She is the 1 craving for Garret Popcorn..

She will ask no matter who back from KL just buy for her.. Does care is close or not close.. All her eyes was.. Garret!

I feel quite funny last time as she is kinda superb duperb hate trouble people that kind of girl.. But for the Garret she can throw off her maruah to ask people buy back to her.. 

Hurm.. Last time i know she is craving for that.. Even ask my 1st known people steven bring back stuff for her when e is on the way to kk for his offshore service..

Beh paiseh! Till now i am still so amazed that i acting like that.. Hurmm..

But.. Now.. She scares the smell already.. Listen the word Garret she already wante to vomit it out.. Tsk tsk tsk..

Feed her too much.. Make her phobia.. Last time still so love.. Not loyal at all!

P/s: carlo rino 罢了喔~ shit.. That 罢了喔 cost 500 bucks.. Please don bliv her tone...

Sacastic,

Roro

Sabah tanah airku~

Pictures tell you the stories.. :)

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#monkey #sakai #cultureshock #fraudbarbiedoll #coconutdrink #barehandopencoconut #sabahsarawak #imissugirls!!!!

#selfie #noob #stalker #magiclens #iphone4s #iphone4notnice:P #pimpleface:(

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#blur #back to reality #sobssobs

hashtag, roro 

purpose

started to forget the initial purpose i went to jog
typical human behaviour
when reach competition... we will be acting more and more aggressiveness
and when you know you can actually do it..
you can actually get a place in those competition..
ehem.. there goes wild...

i had my formal 10K run last saturday..
my 1st night run..
in somewhere in Putrajaya..
i cant say that is my 1st time been there.. cause..
i pass by many times previously..

Putrajaya is like a dead city to me when it reach night..
but the view at night is nice..
just like the view you see from airplane..
shining by those little light at far..
is a good place to dating..
but in kl..
Putrajaya is far.. and.. quite dangerous..

i took my friend BIB go and run.. therefore.. official result does not appear my name
but as usual..
when comes official run..
it will always exceed the performance when u are training..
i already had jogging everyday..
however i am still surprise when i look to the time that i run..
that is.. superb fast..

and when u run alone..
(i am blaming that louis and shafiq does not join the run)
is bored...
and.. feel scary.. as you run alone.. when reach somewhere dark.. someone kipnap? or i hurt myself in the middle? no people come and save me..

there goes again louis scold me..
you thought everyone having same pace with you?!
hahaha.. but i know you will force yourself to catch  up my pace..
and shafiq will slow down his pace to follow my pace..

running alone is just the only disadvantage -bored- you have to endure it..
other than that... is kinda motivator..
coz.. you don dare to rest.. to walk..
so.. you will slow jog.. and very fast to recover and start to normal jog again..
i think coz i am focus.. i have noone to talk with..
i am just counting down 8km.. 6km.. 2km.. then 0.02km..
reach finisher line.. that's why my time is fast...

i am scare right now.. my knee cant bend 100% everytime after i run..
training and running..
i thought that is just temporary.. and is common as i do run lots..
but then.. check with doc is always good advice..
tried to download as many as information regards the knee problem..
runner problems..
i am so sad.. my biology is sucks as my form 5..
cause i am not understand what am i read..

i am deeply believe that the teacher spoil my passion towards biology after she scold me..
haih..
草莓族，伤不起呀
so please dont simply scold me..
if you are my peer same age or just few years older than me..
i will loaded my guns full with fire..and!! attack back..
smile sarcastic.. slowly revenge and torture you in the future.. :)

for elders.. if you scold me..
the way i will act.. is cry~ wakakakakz..
seriously.. i feel bad about my attitude..
but.. i just cannot control it..

i am off my topic.. as usual =P
knee problem.. book the 物理治疗师 in monday to have more understand about what is the problem..
i am just need to worry how am i going to go to prince court in my lunch time..
probably go by taxi..
and back before the lunch time end..
normally i can use up to 2 hours for my lunch time..
too bad doctor appointment is FULL for weekend.
i am just need to pay back the time..
but next monday is month end closing..
plus i having the big diamond that my hubby send to me..
hopefully wont that complexity..

there is few running in this year end..
thanks to louis.. thank you.. for keep update me the runnning news event..
and i am sooo kiasu.. everytime have people ajak i surely want to join..
this is just my starting to run..
my 1st year..
don push myself to so far..
trying my best to recall the main purpose of running..
i am just want to be healthy.. and diet.. and whatever..
but not for the running competition..
i don mind you guyz keep on remind me ask me to stop if i overdo..
just please keep on remind..
i know how kiasu people i am..

and i am going back this weekend!
yeay!
daddy call me yesterday..
luckily i catch up his phone.. (phew)
i cant imagine if i fail to catch his phone..
then he ask many things in short..
(typical my family conversation..)
fast, precise, get result.. ok.. piak..
LoL.. i request to talk with mom before end..
i ask..
i want soup..
i want different soup for that 3 days..
please dont simple bluff me with jagung soup..
i have 3 months no 靚汤滋补滋补
starting to order my menu.. hahaha..
just back for weekend..
is less than 48 hours stay in KK.. but i am so many mamacamcam...
hahaha..

love, roro

Random saturday

不要去羡慕别人的人生，
你看见的，
并不是他们经历的所有。

你只羡慕他们的光鲜外表，
却看不到他们为此付出的代价和努力。

生活不是一定要有惊天动地的情节，才叫精彩。
每个人都在演以自己为主角的偶像剧了，
在这场戏里，你的角色与戏份没有人能够取而代之。

"—— 方文山”

别去羡慕别人！
roro

被爱

怪不得人人渴望被爱，
那种感觉的确幸福，
心中充实得鼓鼓，
像极小的时候，
自幼稚园课室放学出来，
知道妈妈一定在门外等，
门一打开，
便飞奔出来：“妈妈！”扑到母亲怀中，
那便是被爱的感觉。
一生中可遇不可求，
但是，终于得到，泪盈于睫。

（亦舒《谎容》）

就这样

平淡就是我们没话题 还可以相对两不厌。

平淡就是我们没见很久 还是很自在。

平淡就是知道在你身边我可以很随心。

平淡就是 平淡

日子久了，我老了，每件事情看淡了。

以前看重的，现在亦然。只是没那么执着。

笑看人生，做不到。做好自己，做回那自己，是我对自己的要求。