just being randomly looking back my blog

i dumpthe blog as this is hard for me and not convenience for me to upload photo and make it pretty.

i am not the organize people. therefore when dayre introduced. i am fall in love with it. 

some people might feel blog just because you have a reader. but for me. no. 

blog is just to express my overloaded feeling. good, bad and most of the time. mumbling boringness.

true. when i am happy. i am surrounded by happiness. when i am sad.. i am surrounding by tears. 

just when i am emo and do not know what can i do. 

relook back my post.. 

it is all because of him?

that;s true, never underestimate a relationship for a girl. 

it will tore you apart. tooks few months even years to recover. 

marks the date he had leave me more than a year. 

on the exactly a year he get his a new girl friends, a big boobs, a body shape that i want to get away off.

but this kind of girl manage to get his heart. 

had watch a dramacall...i don remember...

got a dialog that makes me thinks carefully.

the drama was a bff (guy and girl)they kissed when they drunk.the girl forget the kiss scene while the guy do remember. and yet. the girl ask the guy just forget everything about last night memory. (because she was drunk and all her memory was mess up) the guy feels sad because he thought the girl has nofeeling towards him.

if you were the girl.. (as if you remember what is the awful things you had done when you drunk) what is the reaction you will do to the guy? i willchoose the same way as the girldid. girl do paiseh and do not know what to react.

and yes. i do the samething to him as well. i choose to not going back to before this issit he has his unfinish word before i say let'sforget about last night.

i choose to. so that makes me myself not to so senka and vain attempt to think how important am i in his heart. not worth dear.. not worth.

let it over and move forward. it takes time for me to forget him.(almost a year) when look into his picture i stll feel the heart broke down.i choose to hide his newsfeed. whenever he comment to our mutual friends i have the feeling to hide ourmutual friends feed as well..

dear.. i know it takes time..but it has a good progress.. dont they?

time is the best healer ever. takes time..bit by bits..

you have HIM to accompany you go through this way. when you old.. you look back.. this is just another chilidish ever relationship you have in your life. that time. you smiled and leave over.. just like nothing happen. 

i know that. the time will come when you are no longer can affect my feeling.