present?

the best present?
for you? how to determine it?
different year, different perception..
get 4 flat? (my 1st sem matrix's result release on my bday that day)
i remember before my bday, my roommate, frenzs bring me out celebrating my bday~
gosh.. that is my best bday party ever..
i cant forget it.. that is awesome!

that bday, i make a wish, i wish..xxx
yet, partially had achieved, while some not.
next bday, sharon made a bday cake for me. handmade..
this is so sweet.. i'm sure i hate to eat cake, but.. that cake.. i have eat 3/4 portion..
coz.. inside.. have your message..
thanks!

21 bday.. they want to show me i'm officially adult..
bring me go out wet till very very late..
u know where we go..
that week still.. exam week.. but they all crazy..
don care UM is haveing exam still bring me out wet..
release stress.. gosh know there cant release any stress..
coz i haven finish or start my next paper which is the day after my bday~

we have bring 1 underage girl..
but this girl is more mature and experience than me!
the experience.. hurm.. those experience that have in your mind now..
thanks for the present.. the most expensive present that i ever get..
u cant imagine how much..
mayb some ad working.. have financial support.. so.. tat expensive.

evry1 told me.. when can crazy celebrate our bday party..
plz do it! coz you have no idea, when sometime,
you have busy until u forget.. today is your bday..
i wish to create more and more memory before the time has come.

talk about bday present.. i remember 1 year.. i get the most present in my life..
36.. i think this is the highest number of present in my life..
cause you know.. present is keep on decreasing every year~ =P

there is a guy in my life..
i start to feel that i'm...
i think i'm fall in love with him becoz i heard his story.
that time, i decide to create a most memorable bday that in his life ever..
on his bday.. he will received a present each hour that i hide in different place..
the place he never knows.. the present that he cant expected..
exciting?
just like a treasure hunt..

why reveal it now?
coz.. it's over.. he not belong to me..
everything in my blog is post.. is the things happen.
i admit i have fall in love with him..
but it is short, and i start doubt that.. does it called love?
or.. u know.. is other things..
i easily recover from that.. which is the evidence that i doubt myself..
that is not love.. is other feeling..

reveal it at here want to tell myself that..
the bday that in my mind, that i plan to create for him..
is no longer exist.. if my mind have the buton "delete"
then.. it is inside my recycle bin now..
mayb 1 day... i'll recover it inside recycle bin for other people which i care on his bday..
who knows?

the thing i know.. it is not him anymore.

i'm sure that everyyear we will buy our self a bday present..
you know.. for our self.. the purpose..
i think the people who always emo will know this feeling..

it bcum bigger and bigger every year that the present i buy for myself..
wat to do? grow up..
dulu dulu we satisfy with sweets..
but now.. sweets is no longer a best present in my bday anymore..
start to save money treat my own best..

love, roro