holiday

today start holiday..

i think yesterday already start.. but today is officially..

haha.. i have done my backdrop design.. OMG.. really ugly.. not professional.. just crop.. copy.. paste.. edit.. then send to michelle.. at here need to apologize wit michelle.. sorry cant help u.. coz my ability is using my mouth.. publicity ma.. sorry cant help u.. i think u will regret take me as member..

now.. i just realize how small am i.. how stupid am i.. i not like wat i think as in matrix.. really/..
an essay.. i wan to be an xtraordinary ppl..

prove that i don wan.. i juz wan be an ordinary ppl.. stay behind ppl.. but wan ppl spend care for me.. feel lucky coz still have ppl care me.. coz i so stupid.. no frenz at all.. only know how to bluff..

sorry to u guys.. be so small gas before.. but.. i am who i am.. i think is my characteristic.. cant change.. thx forgiving me,.. thanks a lot!!

由谁来掌管你的生命？

最近的生活，好像已经是自己坐在心中的宝座上，

不是好像,简直是自己在坐着了

觉得我的生命提不起劲来。

上帝啊，我退我退……我愿意退下来，我真的不想管了，不想理了。

我不会管。我不懂要怎样管理。

总觉得越管越糟。让你坐上去那个宝座吧……来掌管我的生命吧……我只想听你的声音。

我只想照着你的旨意去行。

昨天听了个故事，常觉得自己在他的“讲道”之下学习了很多东西。

我真的受益良多。话说有一天，上帝给了一个人一个任务，那就是推一块大石头。

那个人每一天推，用力的推，费尽了精力，可是那块石头太大太重了，他根本就推不到。

当他看到石头仍然原封不动的时候，他开始抱怨上帝，为什么给我这么大块的石头叫我推？

我根本就推不到！上帝告诉他说：“亲爱的儿子啊，还记得我当初吩咐你什么吗？我只不过叫你推石头，我并没有叫你必须把石头推开啊！”

“你看看你自己，现在是不是比以前更强壮了？”

Earnest说的对，上帝并不是要我们看到什么成绩。

他只是要我们尽力去推石头，因为在推石头的过程中我们会更坚强，我们会成长。

会懂事。神不只是要我们为外邦人带来祝福；更是透过外邦人来祝福我们。让我们来努力一起推这块大石头吧！


right!!! i just need to try my best!!(i really need try my best before.. cannot juz talk talk..) i know where is my limitation.. gambateh roanne!!!

七颗巧克力

一篇很感动我的故事。是Earnest的故事。

他对牛奶很敏感，一碰到牛奶就随时有生命危险的。

话说他三四岁生日时，他们家的一个好朋友打电话给他说会送份礼物给他。

小Earnest兴奋得抱着很大的期望期待着那份礼物，不肯睡觉。

终于，礼物到了……包装得很精致、很美。
他开心的把礼物打开一看…………竟是……一盒巧克力……小小的心，碎…了……脸上挂着的尽是失望……连他爸爸看了……也替他儿子的失望感到痛心。

他爸爸知道他真的真的很想吃，所以告诉他：“你向上帝祷告……你向他求吧！”

小Earnest祷告之后，他就开始吃巧克力，一颗、两颗……七颗。他整整吃了七颗巧克力，他却仍然没事！他全家惊叹着上帝所行奇妙的奇迹！

连上帝也痛心小Earnest的失望……可见上帝是多么的疼我们！！

T.T小Earnest带着满足的心情上床睡觉。

第二天，他又拿了一颗巧克力来吃，才放进嘴里，咬了半口，他的嘴唇直接肿起来！那是他人生中唯一吃过的七颗巧克力。

那是对上帝极大的信心啊！小孩子的信心是大的，耶稣说、让小孩子到我这里来、不要禁止他们。因为在天国的、正是这样的人。超感动的 <3~~ T.T


really very touching... this is a new stiry.. earnest is 1 of clc frenz.. i know he cant eat dan dan such things..i really don know he also like eat such things like me... juz.. he cant eat as sesuka hati like me.. now.. feel... wordless.. need to treat him more nice.. hmmm..

wat can i do now??

some times i really think that when you cant voice out ur stressness.. the other way is write it down.. i seldom do that.. coz i think that is mafan.. the hand will pain.. 2nd.. i think that i have so many fren i can talk with them.. no need sou mai sou mai... but.. sometimes.. really cant.. you dont know.. really.. dont know who can talk wit.. every1 busy wit their own project, things, ppl.. who really care wit you? who? althought gt some1 treally care for you.. but you dont know how to express wit she.. really.. tat wat i'm feeling now... tired.. sad.. just cry in the lecturer hall.. the tears say out straightly.. i dint ask them out from my eyes.. but they did ignore my command.. some ppl "fu yan" to you.. u'll feel it.. really.. coz i did it to ppl too.. but when ppl act same things to u.. u will feel hurt.. i try.. really.. i have try not to fu yan ppl anymore.. i wan to find out the lost roanne.. yes.. i'm lost.. i don know where am i.. i know this feeling very well.. long time dint see u.. feeling.. hey guys~ but sorry i wont say nice to meet you.. i wonder when i can find the way out.. it take how much time?? i dont know

damn laptop!!

i have two laptod.. i'm very proud of it once upon a time.. but now.. haiz.. i have to admin tat i'm a laptod killer.. lol.. coz my acer's laptod screen sotz jo cost me rm750 to fix it well then after tat my dell's laptod also gt problem.. luckily there have warranty on it.. so FOC.. so happy.. coz i really really pokai jo.. no money liao.. the dell' laptod is actually the RAM' problem... no wonder my laptod since i buy it run so slow when i login msn.. facebook.. haih.. not my fault.. ok?? later.. here come the charger got problem.. okok.. this time is my fault.. i make it.. keke..but also FOC.. but very paiseh is the techinician ask this morning i came ur hostel help u fix the RAM.. now is chaarger problem?? so paiseh..