对爱的体验

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Neil Gaiman

i read this 1 month ago.. and.. i damn agree with it.. last night.. wan lei post this as her entry for her blog.. i think.. this reminds me should do the things that i wish to do 1 month ago..

love?
makes me fragile, makes me bcum noob, dumb..
but.. when love is come..
i'm sure i will grab the chance fall in love again..

love, makes me 想在他的身上花钱
自己都不舍得花钱~
看东西只会想到买什么给他~
为了他，不吃不喝
和他吵架，嘴巴虽然贱~ 手里不接她的电话
但是心里却希望他一直一直打来表示关心我~想tam我~
看我心情~想接就接~
通常接了表示原谅你~
在甜言蜜语个几回~
就冰释了~
看你会不会tam我而已~

惹你生气了~
痛苦的也只会是我的心~
昨天看了一个朋友和她男朋友的相处方式~
当下觉得很不齿~
回头想想~自己也不过如此~

只是~我会更不懂表达自己
明明在乎~却表现到不在乎~
对方不是我肚里的蛔虫~
不懂我的想法~
但我又不会表达出来
我没那口才表达出来~
他也没耐性听我说完
也没那慧根听懂我在讲什么~
最后，走上分手路~

他，无缘无故的挂电话
她，虽然生气还要打回去骂他
他，不想听她骂他
把电话放在一边让她继续骂，骂够瘾~自己在一旁打game
她知道~却也无可奈何

如果是我~
我会kap回他电话~
心里在乎~面子也在乎~
有的时候，我要做大女人，我有自己的大女人主义
等他回电tam我
不回电？
完了~彻底完了~
火山爆发
分手~

曾经~遇见一个有耐性的人~可惜~终究不是他

love, roro